Rise

November 19, 2016 Leave a comment

The stitch of mouths,
the binding of hands,
the fire, the pyre,
the frenzy—
history hangs
in the balance,
tucked between teeth,
a bite,
a smile,
a coward—
he asks you to come closer,
he asks you to trust,
he demands
your silence,
and make no mistake:
a wolf
can easily hide itself
among other wolves,
but it takes a monster
to stand in the center
and call the mirror a liar,
to deny the twist
of his own myth,
to burn Rome down
and call it justice.

There’s nothing in this room
that hasn’t happened
before—but that doesn’t mean
honest hands should give Nero
his fiddle, or that solid souls
should offer
Circe her poison—
once the seal is broken,
you do not accept it,
you do not condone it,
you do not make it pretty,
and you do not look away.

Tomorrow
has a thousand heads,
and your heart is a sword:
use it wisely. The wolf is waiting—
be the stones
in its stomach.

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these bones are marked

November 12, 2016 Leave a comment

You speak to me of secrets,
but the storm is right there,
I can point to it
with my whole hand,
feel it with my whole heart,
the darkness
that refuses to see itself
in any mirror, refuses
to acknowledge the mirror
exists, turns its back
with a smash, kindness
shattering
in the wake of a scream.

Wait and listen, then—
someone will call for your silence,
someone will ask you to calm down,
someone will tell you to buck up,
someone will demand your acceptance,
someone will remark that it will be okay,
but I want to know:
how loud is your kindness?
how furious is your compassion?
how strong is your courage?
how weak is your apathy?
and how wide are your eyes open?

This world, right now,
offers us a new gravity,
its weight is heavier
than it was a moment ago,
full of fire
that can do two things:
ravage or warm,
and we must be mindful
of the spark,
the way it catches easily
on what’s been leeched
and blanched
beyond all human recognition,
these bones
are marked by a living ghost,
a thick howling creature
with a gentleman’s smile.
Do not tell me to look the other way
in the presence
of a monster. Do not ask
that I turn the other cheek.

Do not think I will sit
down
and stay small
when a mouth
becomes a noose,
a knife,
a burning cross,
a gleeful hate.

Remember, remember
this: in a world of burning things,
we should strive
to be water,
but do not forget
that water also drowns.

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Hurricane

November 7, 2016 Leave a comment

Don’t call it what it is,
don’t examine it too closely—
the way want arrives
without ceremony
or warning, there’s no
howl, just the flick
of fingers, a feeling
that spreads like sunset,
all color
and no shame,
an unexpected patchwork
that reads like a miracle,
invisible
and yet not—
an echo,
an unwasted spark,
a hurricane
of body and bone.

There’s always more
than one way to strike
a match, to give thanks,
to unravel
the astonishment
of desire—
but a crooked heart
always leans in one direction,
and you are a splendid
magic, a fully satisfied
smoky secret,
pushed beyond warning
into bonfire,
and this
is a steady invitation,
unbuttoned
and imperfect,
a crack of fire
undeterred by the rain.

In the end, a mouth
can be a safehouse,
the curve of a hip
a happy mistake,
the way it feels
to laugh into a kiss
without breaking—
no self-defense,
only freedom.

Now, examine it closer,
take a naked look
at this sweet circus,
the harbor of a red mouth,
all salted skin
and rough promise—
there’s a story
deep inside, a name
hidden
in a gasp,
come, find what’s waiting
in the dark.

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a place of depth

October 10, 2016 Leave a comment

Maybe this is more honest
than the last ocean,
all salt and song,
dedicated to the current
of everything that’s wrong,
pulling darkness
out of marrow
until something breaks,
a snap, mouth
mistaking sorrow for air,
leaving every shore
again and again,
gasping
beneath the sure weight
of an endless want.

Break a dish,
cross a street,
kiss—there are always
consequences,
overripe and sweet,
laughter that spins
like an earthquake,
but you don’t realize
what’s collapsing
until it’s too late.

Throw a name at the sky
and see if it takes flight,
more bird than bone,
the way the wind unhinges
itself, reveling in its own freedom,
the simple way
it finds and loses
its footing, never settling,
always on the rise.

All hearts
are a place of depth,
a darkness
in which we willingly
drown. Ask what’s more
important:
air or love?
The ocean
knows all your secrets,
and even on its worst day,
will sing them
word by word
back to you.

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Whatever You Do, Don’t

September 22, 2016 Leave a comment

Your hands are full of darkness,
a cruel want, a kiss,
someone else’s apple,
the clean crunch
of a heart under a heel,
a name
like an apology
that pivots
as a bullet hole,
through and through,
all exit wound,
all exit.

Look down
at the reckless perfection
of your fingers:
call up the memory
of skin on skin,
slipping from one hunger
to another, never
calling it what it is—
whatever you do,
don’t look in the mirror,
don’t dig up forgiveness
by the roots,
don’t believe the rumors,
never mind that you
started them yourself.

You are someone’s reason for living.
You are someone’s reason for leaving.
You are a body, a shot glass,
a fit of tequila, slow burn,
a prayer candle
in a church that’s burning down—
now, what?

Sooner or later, your heart
will burst for the wrong reasons,
a reminder
that all love is a flood,
that sorrow
is textured like a bruise,
that doubt lingers
like a broken wishbone—
what if what if what if?

This story is always yours,
always someone else’s—
beginning with a name
no one says aloud.

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forgiveness is a river

September 4, 2016 Leave a comment

Sometimes, you will come in last place,
you will burn dinner, miss your exit
on the highway, find lips
marked red, but fail to heed
the warning. Sometimes, hurricanes
have bones, sharp angles,
and skin; sometimes, the wreck
is a hallelujah
that rises from your body
like the gasp of a name,
a walk from a place
you never should’ve been—
but you call it home.
Sometimes, the hunger
won’t make sense,
but that doesn’t mean
you don’t eat. Sometimes,
an offer is a question mark,
a laugh, a glass of wine—
drink it
until your heart forgets
all its old failings.
Sometimes, forgiveness
is a river, and you find yourself
drowning in it
when you meant to cross it.
Sometimes, you can’t remember
how it began, only
that you don’t want it
to end; when it has,
go back home—
pretend you know
how and where
to find it,
pretend you understand
the word
belong.

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Go big or go home.

August 29, 2016 2 comments

 

 

I’ve always been a big fan of the small gesture: bringing someone a cup of coffee, the Thinking of You text, a silly photo (probably of an animal, because DUH), a handwritten letter, a smile, an unexpected compliment.

 

Small things matter. They don’t cost a lot of money. They’re just nice. They can be just the thing to make a bad day better, to fix a sour mood, to brighten a life.

 

But this weekend made me think about big gestures. My amazing friend, Liz, drove 9-ish hours to come hang out. One way, guys. That’s a roughly 13 billion-hour trip, and it floored me in the very best way (I had SUCH a wonderful time, because DUH).

 

It made me think about the things we do for the people in our lives who really matter. It made me think about how, when we care about someone, obstacles don’t really matter. Not time. Not geography. Not any kind of distance.

 

And I’m lucky. I have a friend who reminded me that grand gestures are possible. And they’re as amazing and they are important. Sometimes in life, we often find ourselves not really believing that there’s magic in the world.

 

But there is magic. And I think that we need more big gestures and more fireworks. Yes, small miracles are still miracles. But they’re not changing water to wine. It’s so easy to take the small miracles as evidence, an indication that only small things are possible. Again: it’s not.

 

You can move a mountain if you try. If you really want to. If your heart is in it. And think about it: when’s the last time you made a big gesture? Went balls out and heart in, said screw it and did something definitive and brilliant? When is the last time you showed up in a really big way? Without being asked or prompted to? Just…because.

 

I’m not saying this has to be a romantic gesture. Mine wasn’t. (But darlings, friendships are nothing to sneeze at. Mine save my life, on the regular. And I’m lucky as hell in my people.) It can be a romantic gesture if that’s what your wild heart wants.

 

But I think, beginning in September, let’s all do something big. Let’s all do something honest and crazy. Let’s go big or go home. Let’s put up or shut up. Let’s be over-the-top and insanely present. No more sidelines and skirting around the edges. Just straight out in the middle of it all, center stage and full sunlight.

 

You in?

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