hungry for the wreck
Some call it weakness, this brazen tendency toward vulnerability; fragility worn like a new dress, a heart that bends and promises, gives and waits, with nothing but stars for expectations. Despite false perceptions, openness is not a fault line, or a crooked compass, or a price; it is strength that resembles forgiveness, it is passion that resembles sacrifice; it is love that only ever resembles itself. Today, winter is waiting for a reason not to exist; its fingers are dragging the earth like a wolf hunting for spring – a reminder that every moment can be something else, if you’re hungry enough. Tomorrow, the moon will ask the world for everything, and it does not matter how small your courage is, only that you have. It does not matter how deep your fears are, only that you deny them – everything, lately, a lesson that cautions against foolish acceptance. Unclench your heart – it is not a fist. Unstick your jaw – gospels are not grief. Unbind yourself – promises are not meant to be prisons. Consider this: maybe need is having a back alley brawl with want – or maybe it doesn’t realize it’s fighting itself, and everything is bruised and sparking. There are days full of ice, waiting for a word of flame. There are hearts full of love, waiting for a touch of grace. There are always reasons to wake up ravenous for someone else’s strict prayers, but that which feeds you should never leave you empty. Some will see vulnerability as less; some will see fragility as a lack of faith; some will offer the word survival as a convenient noose, desperate for your to hang yourself – but there is no power in keeping to your knees for the sake of someone else’s religion, and fire is a better fate than frozen. Remember, remember this: even wings become weapons against gravity, and falling sometimes feels like freedom even when it hurts. Love sometimes means burning your own house down and marveling at the ashes; there no getting away clean, but you forget how strong scar tissue is – and that there’s always beauty in the wreck.