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do you love her? You Always Have to Choose

Come back to me. Forgive me. I love you.

We all want to be chosen by someone. We want someone to pick up. This is not rocket science. It’s human nature. We want to choose and be chosen in return. And, sometimes, we want proof, tangible evidence. Sometimes—when our hearts have been broken, smashed, and set on fire—words are not evidence. We need more. We need actions. Because words are lovely. Words are pretty. Words have weight and meaning. But often in life, when we’re gunshy and emotionally bleeding, words are not enough.

On Thursday’s Scandal (A Woman Scorned), the whole episode was about actions. The words were sharp. The words were powerful. Everything said, unsaid, and between the lines – they counted. But when it comes down to it, most of the characters made choices and took stands. Some, perhaps, were forced. Some were unexpected. But each one will have epic fallout.

First, the gang at OPA learns that Charlie is the guy who broke into Liv’s apartment. Charlie is Cyrus’s guy, and there’s a brief moment where they think he might be the mole. But it’s discovered that Charlie has an unknown allegiance. I’m guessing that it’s to Jake’s boss, but I’m not willing to run out, say, Mellie. She does, after all, have a motive to want Liv dead. And what would offset her stunning confession about Fitz’s infidelity more than the revelation than – oops! The first lady has been plotting murder and betraying her country? That aside, there was minimal fallout from the revelation that OPA now knows about Liv’s affair with Fitz. Because of that, Huck reveals that Charlie killed Amanda Tanner on Cyrus’s orders – which was a sweet revelation on Huck’s part, because he was concerned for Liv. To paraphrase Abby, he shook off the crazy pretty damn well.

Then there’s Jake, whose loyalty is strangely split – between Huck’s old boss and Fitz. Jake isn’t a bad character. I don’t think he’s a bad guy. I have concerns, because I feel like he’s probably more like Huck than we have seen. But when he cares about Liv. And I thought it was very interesting that he really did level with her. Because I didn’t know that you were the president’s girl. Whoops. Liv, of course, tries a tactic that worked well on Edison –which is not to answer and distract him with a kiss. But Jake isn’t Edison, he repeated his question of how deep are you in? And Olivia’s walls go right back up, because she lies to his face.

A good part of the episode was Olitz-related. Mellie has move out and issued an ultimatum. Fitz isn’t caving this time, and Cyrus is freaking out. Meanwhile, James has been offered a job, which turns out to be pretty fancy – with tailored suits – as an on-air anchor. Cyrus is too preoccupied, perhaps, to put two-and-two together. That the news channel that hired James is the same one that Mellie is granting an interview to. The revelation comes too late, because Mellie confesses Fitz’s extramarital mamboing to James on live tv. That was brilliantly orchestrated by the first lady, who PERSONALLY requested James, which explains his sudden job offer. Mellie may prove to be more than just a political animal. She may be sly like a fox, and a tad bit rabid. Because, um, remember the LAST person to cross Cyrus? AMANDA TANNER. *ahem*

But let’s tackle the Olitz of it all. Man, these two had some epic exchanges, teeming with raw emotions. They spent most of their interactions yelling at each other. Emotions run high, feelings pour out. This is stark contrast to the way Fitz just ignores Mellie. She’s about to blow up, and he’s focused on Liv. That, as Cyrus accidentally points out, is love. You give the person you love whatever they want. The moon. (Jimmy Stewart shoutout!) And that is exactly what Fitz eventually does. Because all Liv really wants is Fitz. Not the idea of Fitz. Not the possibility of Fitz. Not Theoretical Fitz (although, if that was a college course, sign me up!). Even when they were together, Fitz was still out of her reach. Not because of the presidency. Not because of his job. Because, in the eyes of everyone, he belonged to someone else. He wanted her. He loved her. He chased her. But he never truly chose her.

Until this episode.

At one point, Liv and Fitz are having a spat in the Oval Office. Liv yells, “You do not summon me.” And without even so much as a breath, Fitz counters, “YOU do not walk away from me.”

That, right there? Well, that’s the entire contention of their relationship. She doesn’t want to feel like an object, a toy – a fantasy. And Fitz would very much like her to stop fleeing. Which she does have a habit of doing, even under the guise of ‘fixing’ things. I’m not going to quote that entire scene, but it is rife with impassioned pleas on both their parts. Because, if you notice, Liv DID turn to leave – but she stayed and had that fight. And sometimes in relationship, darlings, fighting is important (as long as it’s clean fighting; no dredging up things that happened three year ago, name-calling, or low blows). Liv stayed. Liv told Fitz what she wanted/needed from him. And she wants to be earned. (Brilliant phrasing, btw, which harkened back to the flashback where Fitz asks if he has Liv’s vote. And she tells him that he has to earn it. There were great dialogue parallels throughout this episode. Namely, the “I can’t stop. I won’t stop.” lines. You know, the ones that previously happened before Oval Office Desk Sex.)

Fitz: How many times do I need to tell you that you’re more than [a mistress]? Come back to me. Forgive me. I love you.

Liv: Please stop. Please stop getting my hopes up. Just STOP.

Pay attention to exactly what Liv said. It wasn’t just please stop. It wasn’t just I’m done. It was stop getting my hopes up. Which is huge. Because it means she cares. It means she’s invested. It means she has been HOPING for something in relation to Fitz. It means she gives a damn. It means she wants things. It means she is in, despite all protesting to the contrary. It is everything.

Much to everyone’s surprise—except Fitz, who really does know exactly what he wants—the President chooses Olivia. He throws down for Liv. In a big, can’t be misconstrued way. Cyrus tells him, “You give for what you love. Give her the damn moon. Go to her.” Cy, of course, is talking about Mellie – about repairing his relationship to her, even if it’s for a superficial reason. Mellie isn’t acting like a political player. She is acting like a woman who is hurt. So, she cannot be reasoned with. Mellie, honestly, seemed just as surprised that Fitz didn’t cave. Because Fitz always has in the past. Instead, he went to Liv.

You can’t fix the fact that I love you. I have told you that I’d give it all up, again and again. And you know what I think? I think you don’t believe me. I think you believe that I will never choose you. So, this time, I’m fixing things. –Fitz

He went to give her proof that he is choosing her, that it’s not just words. That is not an empty promise. It’s real. It isn’t theoretical. You can’t fix the fact that I love you. A truer thing have never been spoken. Honestly, how often do we struggle, needlessly, with love? With the love that we feel, with the feelings that we may have? How often do we try and fix love by ignoring it? By turning our backs and running away? But love is not something you can bundle up and duct tape and leave in a corner. You cannot fix love, because it isn’t broken. It just is. It should be honored.

That’s what happens when Fitz chooses Liv, despite the mess it will make of everything. Despite the way it looks. Despite how crazy it may seem. When the clock literally runs out, Fitz has made a grand, big gesture. Fitz has cast the dice. It’s done. With his heart in his eyes, wants to know if Liv wants him. He is vulnerable. He has given her something she wants, something she has needed. Make no mistake, their back-and-forth history has taken a toll on her. It has left her wounded and wary. She is afraid. She is leery of trusting Fitz, because maybe he’s Lucy with the football. And she’s Charlie Brown. So, he gives her proof – and now he leaves their fate in her hands. He is trying to earn her.

He chose her. And then Liv? Liv chooses him right back. They kiss. They make love. They exchange HIs. And it’s real. It’s two people reunited, two people who have this beautifully powerful, ridiculous strong connection to each other. It’s everything that right about love, despite how it looks – or might seem – on paper. Despite the technicalities, their love is true. And they finally both choose each other at the same DAMN time. Because before, it was one or the other, and not quite on this scale. This was huge.

(Also, in the shower, was that the first time we’ve seen Olivia’s natural hair? Even when she was in the hospital, even when she went swimming, even when she was with Edison – we never saw her nature hair. Now, maybe I’m reading too much into things, but to me? That was Olivia being her truest, vulnerable self. It was just another way to convey the fact that these two are just wildly themselves with each other.)

Sit with me, and let’s run out the clock. Sit with me, and watch me choose you. Watch me earn you.

That, right there, is the beginning of everything. It’s a brave new world. These two have struggled and struggled with their own feelings – and each other – for a very long time. And there comes a moment in a relationship like this where you just have to choose the other person, despite everything else. Because no matter how complicated and insane it is, it’s the only true thing. It’s the only worthy thing. Love like that is rare. Love, with that kind of depth and connection. Love, where sex is simply a by-product of emotions – where even standing near each other is a powerful thing. Love.

There’s nothing truer than that.

“Do you love her?’ she asked him.
‘Always have,’ he said.
‘Then why in the world would you leave her alone?”
Suzanne Palmieri, The Witch of Little Italy

Categories: Scandal
  1. BlackStar
    May 5, 2013 at 3:24 pm

    That was wonderful as always. If you feel so inclined, it would be great to have a more in-depth reading of Mellie. As a character, she is completely foreign to me so I have a hard time relating to her or understanding her motivations.

    • May 5, 2013 at 3:37 pm

      Sure! I’d be happy to do that. It’ll probably be during the week, if I get to it this week. 🙂 I’m really glad that you enjoyed this. Thank you for reading and commenting.

  2. Camille
    May 5, 2013 at 4:45 pm

    That was BRILLIANT and AWESOME.

  3. @M2THRU
    May 5, 2013 at 5:30 pm

    Fiirst, nice s/o to *Jimmy Stewart*. Now about this episode…it is still the talk of the town. You have pretty much broken it down, and may have explained the majority of the type of love that Olitz has.

    However, I think people sometimes view love as this *quid pro quo* deal, which, definitely is not good. You are right when you said that oftentimes, we need to *see* that proof of love. In past episodes, Liv would just break off their relationship because she knew it was the right thing to do. It wasn’t until Fitz found out about Defiance, and started saying thos hurtful things to her, that she realized the back-and-forth was not working…that she needed more. Yes, they both hurt each other in more ways than one, but Liv just did not believe that Fitz truly loved her…that it was just lip service.

    Also, do you remember the episode when Fitz was originally going to give up his Presidency for her, and she told him, and Cyrus, that she would tell the media that it was her on the sex tape? Right there, she was willing to have her career collapse, just to possibly save his. So, you see, they both were willing to make sacrifices for each other. That *waiting* scene in episode 220 was some of the best writing, as it showed Liv’s angst/disbelief, and also showed Fitz’s confidence/commitment.

    Not sure how long this will last, especially when Fitz finds out about Liv and Jake(in Liv’s defense, she had no idea Jake was working for Fitz). Also, I thought the waiting scene was the best time for Liv to have told Fitz about her and Jake…no more secrets.

    Wow, I didnkt mean for this comment to be long. It’s just that, when we’re talking about Scandal, 142 characters jus won’t do! Lol!

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